How COME???

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Yesterday was the last day of internship for a young girl who came for a training as SECRETARY's work with me for two –months period. Her name is “Mutha”, she’s nice girl, smart, smiling always and easy person to work with. Over past two months, I thought I like her best such as provided her a warm regard, good communication and notify that shows that she I likes me as sister because never blame her all any mistakes what she have done by accident, and she did accepted and said if any one who beside she’ll blamed all the time........ But I just give her some good advised “I won’t do that, but please trying to release all mistakes down become smaller and smaller..............till less nothing, that time you will be come a high responsible person in one day soon”. She’s smiles and feels so proud of me and thought she’s a lucky who met me.

A day before yesterday "June 29th", in my office prepared a small farewell for her and her friend who came at librarian and once of our specialist Consultant are leaving together ended of this month. Unfortunately, Mutha she can’t join us because she have to visit her uncle who got an accident, staying at hospital that why she missed that good occasion. However, on her last day, I decided invited her to have something at BBQ together; and would give her a small gift expressing my thanks for her two months helps me in works. She’s said ok with a lovely smile..... Yes Bang, I’ll!!! “She replied”

After working time, we travel by motor straightly to BBQ together..........as she’s my driver. We travel under the rain “it’s so heavy but it’s really cool during that time”. We have chatting along till BBQ place, and order something to eat. Hey we strong enough because we never forgot order to drink Roll Beef.......Hmmm, its Yummy, she kidding........!

The clock pointed at 6:18 pm, I decided call to saying hello to one of my friend {sorry that I can't tell you his name but that guy he'll know himself who?}. Then I asked him “Where are you?” (I’m at Mekong University.....where are you?) he replied. I asked him again, “At BBQ, would like to have something with us........” he was wondered who I mean us.......it's mean two people.......beised whom I went with? And then he asked me, (who’s with you now??) “She’s my colleague who’s intern at my office and today is her last day that why I invite her here!!” I said, but he asked another question, (Can I go there too, coz I want to meet your friend too?); I added “Ok!!! It’s after you; we’ll wait u here ok? But don’t be too late, coz we almost done now”. After hang off the phone we continue eating and waiting for him. We can be estimated how far he was, how long it will take to travel from there to here (BBQ). It may only 15 – 20 minutes only, but we were waiting for him almost an hour.

We were waiting a bit longer I looked the watch show, 7:07 pm sharp, but he still not comes or anything can be happen with him only???? I’m worry that time that why we decided call him again & asked “Where are you now..........we’re waiting you here....... why too later man?” Do you know what he replied back? It’s funny, it's seem like a kid solution with his MOM {Sorry for saying this!!!!}....... he said (Sorry, please not waiting for me dear because I’m now with my friends’ party, they invited me here?) I really surprised while he said so........then replied him; “What???????? U said want to join us and we’re waiting u here now u said you’re with your friends anyway, why you do this with me?” I accepted I very.............very angry with this guy, as my remembered it’s not first time happen between him & I, so I wish to know your thought [How do you feel if your friend did like this to you again and again???????.........then what will do you with him/her???????].

More over, I really..................really know it’s just a small thing and not important, but if you friend break only 30 second like this what will you do???????? Thanks for makes me lose face in front of that young girl who went with me................GUY. She have nothing to say too, but just asked me { Have he done like this alwayssssssss?}. "No.........it's first time, it's true........ but thought he might forgot from his mind too..........Other wise for me "NO way because I'm a kind of person who have good memorized, always remember all situation has happened even good or bad don't car. And I like to write all and events happening from day-to-day as personal recorded too. How can I forgot it easily?. Please to promised you that, I’ll recorded this bad situation in my heart what you have done today forever.......... “I know I can’t compare with your friends’ guy but you have no kidding with me also that your requested wish to come? Why you do this with me? For several time, I always keeping in mind.............thought you’re good man/friend and only one of BEST FRIEND who’s took belong in my life. I just knew what I thought it’s different so far what you action that you done with me. NOW I don’t know how I could say again.............and still never catch up or understand tha't friend's feel either.... Can what friend or BEST friend means .........?

By the way, that all what I want to say..........I thought last night if I would not write this event out té .............I can’t release those feeling bad either. This is just reminding you what you have DONE!!! :((

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Stress........

I sometime still don’t understand why whenever I am in bored, I feel need do something change from my mechanical life ...........away from regularly..........and some days for any place to relax a way from very noisy sounds from those many people around..... I never hate them.........but I feel bored myself. Other wise, I’ll bored with this life..........coz I am doing all anything same from day-to-day with never changed. So I thought, it need add something for life........may be. Still I don’t know what I need to do....or as which way I have to go? And I ever think this seriously about this.........

On the other hand, I sometime think really nice to be the kind of person who can be content with the status quo, and in those brief moments, I realize that all I would need to do would be to settle down, take a steady job doing the same thing, same environment like this every day, explore less, just take fewer risks, and smooth some of those rough edges. Then I shudder and laugh loudly or smiling lovely to people around and tell me I’m got back to being happy the things just the way they are...........

However, if I would sum up all what I was thinking above I might choose first once.........than second, it’s very exactly what I thought now a day.......and because I’ve spent nearly 14 years ago to working only one place (My office). Although, everything here doing very.......with good nice people around (colleagues), good family, good salary and others etc..... Now I think should I continuing or I have to changes, and then see what will happen next? .......who never know? But give your comments “I have a crazy thought ok? Because everyone who living in our BIG WORLD are always having the difference ideas!!!

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L****O****V****E

I wonder is there anyone can give me the mains answer of what is the specific meaning for these four letters? *** However, I thought the answer it might not different so far from the description as below: RIGHT? Ok..........let's try guys!!!

And this is a small gift for you feed back ur thought.....>>>>

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Step I

*L* is for the way you at each other
*O* is for the only one side I can see
*V* is very.....and very extraordinary for all of you
*E* is even more one than anybody that you adore with

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Step II

So love is all........that I can give only YOU

And love is more than just a game for two-persons, but if you’re playing with three that will be a BIG problem in your life and at lease must be tearing out, or go away bcoz of *LOVE*

Then loves two in love can make it...........plz give me your heart or just take me into your heart, and don’t make it break coz of LOVE

As love is blind can’t see anything clearly “Don’t know what’s wrong or what is right”

Lastly, the meaning of love always you as KING or QUEEN “Everyone makes just for you and me only........

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Step III

Love is seriously risk..........it’s a about taking a risk....whether or not you at the end of GAME. Then somehow, in order for you to one what is the end of the longer blvd, you’ll have to take the plunge and following your heart needs. At the same time and just praying please GOD helps this love longer life and don’t anyone broken.

Love, especially of your first love, love must be so sweet or bittersweets; will 4ever remain in your heart “Just to remember this lesson” to look back and give lovely slimes and at the sweetest looking for your fortune.........last time

Love, can one another? The answer is MUST BE YES; the true love will never disappoint. As what is love exactly meaning, can one love, still we don’t know how one show love. Is one said to be positive? It just really doesn’t know how to show.......deeply down in the heart love dwells, but how do one show and learn how to know we’re in loves? That’s all the colorful meaning of=====> {these four letters} as L****O****V****E

** Thanks for giving your true LOVE in to someone's heart with honestly feeling!!!

Last Night!!!

In several times, I always said I have much.........much more idea to say or to write something has happen everyday to post in my blog, that will be not very easy for me too becoz English is not my mother native speech. Unless, today I have so much to say and to write, but I do not quite sure the words to express myself yet. So, until then, this is I can do. It just I feel if I start writing right now. I know I may not a good writer so I would be spend more then an hour to explain all has happening.

Who know?? I feel and really accepted that today I have working very........very hard and sometime I forgot even drink water that why “My immediately supervisor calling Ms. ROBO, it's mean that someone who's works withno time to take a rest or care about her/his self” It’s sound a bit funny but it’s true. Everyday I worked for whole day, no enough to relax even weekend or as on the public holiday, totally its 7 days a week “5 days from Monday – Friday’s doing my office, and an other 2 days I have filling my weekend class {Both: Saturday and Sun}.

And now it make feel sooooooooooooo exhausted and tired coz I’m SICK again, just came back from clinic now at the office. I should relax for full day but today is Friday, and there’s a lot of thing waiting for me. Both of them "My doctor and once of my friend blamed why I never think my health is important then money or work?" If I comparing yourself as me you will know of my heart “I replied. Now I feel uncomfortable here as “Fever, headache, and a bit cold” it’s really disturb so much. This is may be my whole life is making one excuse after another so that I never have to reality do anything or facing anything as such this hard, I am tried of being scared of lonely all the time, as I am being stagnant. This is can or can’t help may be I don’t know? As of serious thing events has happened last night as..................

I had a crazy headache so deep and penetrating most a whole night that was afraid I might pass out or have something wrong or can be stroke I don’t know? On the other hand, thought I could not anything bad happen again........and again, because I pretty important to do – as something for which I had to be “on my point”. But still can’t be getting myself revved up for my day-to-day stuff of works. Adrenaline does wonders for the way of feeling, as long as I can keep the headache in check. It’s hard with my MOM can’t accept this events, she said she deeply painful herself than see my situation happening during that time.

Do you know all those words it makes me more deeply hurt then others....... and I so sloggy, because I very much understand about this her feel that's all “What all PARENTS are proving to the kids” I am feel so quilty with this. And that doesn’t do much for the emotion in side of me, either. I think may be I have to do something specially, more relax and find some fun things to do with other friends, and as to inject some life into my life...........to be more happen and joy able in life!!

I'm sorry....!!!

I always think that the storm of my life has passed professionally I sorted out time issues and personally, still not ready yet because I felt no confidence and out of control sometime. I feel at peace and unhappiness or seriously coz sometime it happened. I feel guilty with this......... we still hang out most of our free times – like friends as like before. Then I think at this point, both of us never want to lose each other as good friends, My friends I know, you might thought that I’m crazy to do this, coz you can’t being flexible of my feel has change only between one second right? Your words absolutely RIGHT!!! I should learn more about the other person feeling around, and especially YOU GUY.... But I would tell you that no one want it happen like that as last night. In this life have no any best friend beside you but you still not accepted I really don’t know how?????



Other while, I would say sorry once again...........for all I have done, and make you very.............very up set with me, it’s out of control lose all confidence that why? Hope might understand, and accepted. I am now feeling ashamed myself why doing this. Even though, I not asking for a your forgive me then, whatever your decision, it's after you "Can we continuing our relation good as before or should END???" I’ll follow your choice, but I would remind once more thing “NO any body is always perfect in the WORLD for everything.” Overall all above I just want to expressing and clean up of all my disappointed feeling out of mind........

L ast for thanks everything, including your special time........and other etc............!!! Please give me lovely smiles as yesterday........ And just accept that sometime mistakes make our life....................and make know more clearly more clearly WHO WE ARE???????????

*** I would pass this message over once of my friend that I make him angry last night, I accepted what I've done wrong,that's himself who know this. Hopefully he might understand........about how i'm feel?***

Just for 2day

I'm here again, and warm welcome to review my blog. Today is Sunday; I’m here a lone at my office. Normally; my hobby I always coming to office clear up some ex-work and then, read books or update my blog. Or sometime I sent messages to once of my friend invited him have something together. And sometime I also need the only constant thing about Life is change. I don't know where the quote originated; but, it's one of the truths I sincerely believe in my soul.

However, I believe no matter how much Life changes, friendship is a constant personal thing too. Even though, I had let some friendships slide due to differences, and only once of my best friend who well know about this, he also has been a good consultancy in my life. U may wonder why I said this several times “Well........ This is true MANI!!! I knew myself, I feel so lonely in this life and don’t have any friend beside him, BUT I still don’t know how he feels to me. How does he feel to me as I’m once of his friend like my soul or not?

By the way, I just want to have someone who cares about me........... And or talking with, and he is once of my best choice and last links as a best friend since more than a year ago. As I remembered as several time, he talk to me many.........many times as “He want to go somewhere a long with me might during holiday coming. But that time not comes yet, and I knew that his favorites place such as: The beautiful Beach “Preah Sihanouk Ville” or either Angkor Wat based in Siem Reap province. Angkor is status of my country with her beautiful and famous temples.

Other while; I would to add up a bit more information you may already read thru some articles in my blog entitled "Cambodia Angkor Girls". In that blog, its full fill explaining about my beautiful COUNTRY with some nice pictures attached. I also told you “ANGKOR TEMPLES” and sometime I have heard our foreign visitors who came to here, they’re always if you reach to CAMBODIA but you never been to The Golden of Angkor land, it’s mean that you’re well known about this country as well so "You must accepted that Angkor Wat is once of famous place, is the status in everyone's soul in the WORLD". I know, you much thinking how funny this guy saying, but I'd tell you again.......... it’s true, all above I am frankly said from my heart. Anyway, just leave it away....that all I want to says for NOW!! And thanks for ur time, i'll be back soon!!!

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Not Well

Today, I’m feeling sick again........how bored am I? I’m still here at my office for work almost a whole day. Because I ha so much stuff I needed to do, as well... And I never try to do as freedom person.........as others.

Hmm.......I’m look at my computer's watch it’s showing 5:56 pm now. I know you might wondering why I coming to office every weekend? Am I crazy person that do this everyday? I would reject UUU.....nope..................I’m not man!!! Everything ok for me including mental, blood or even heart are working okl. I started notify myself see that now my health become weaker and ..........weaker in this year, and sometime I feel so worried with this, it's happening from day-to-day.........how should I do?

Oh........ god! the more I thinking, it make me more headache, who help me now........because I just back from clinic last hour, shall I go back .............Noooo.......no way just let it be, I’ve go now.

May god bless you all!

A New Modern!!!

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Sky Building

Dear beloved readers:

Please see this highest building in the world. Can you tell me in which country? Bcoz I received this nice thru email from once of my friend, but she did not mentioned the specific location of the building either.

Thanks

Ice Art

Which One Is UUUU?

Your Sometime Feel

A dream b comes true:

A stranger came to the door at eve; And he spoke the bridegroom fair. He bore a green-white stick in his hand, And, for all burden care; He asked with the eyes more than the lips.

For a shelter for the night, and he turned and looked at the road afar, without a window light
The bridegroom came forth into the porch With, "Let us look at the sky,

And question what of the night to be, Stranger you and I "The woodbine leaves littered the yard
The woodbine berries were blue. Autumn; yes, winter was in the wind; "Stranger, I wish I knew." Within, the bride in the dusk alone Bent over the open fire; her face rose-red with the glowing coal.

And the thought of the heart’s desire; The bridegroom looked at the weary road, yet saw but her within, and wished her heart in a case of gold and pinned with a silver pin.

The bridegroom thought it little to give; A dole of bread, a purse, A heartfelt prayer for the poor of God. Or for the rich a curse; but whether or not a man was asked, To mar the love of two by harboring woe in the bridal house, The bridegroom wished he knew.

Will u be my Valentine?

I woke up in a white room with white lace curtains, Snow covered landscape; I’m in Memphis for certainyesterday, it took over three hours, just to travel the last twenty miles.

But nothing is like my wife’s family; Always being greeted with smiles,I was hoping for a White Christmas. You’d be surprise how simple I am Be careful what you wish for God may be listening to your plan.

Most of the nation is covered with that dangerous, and beautiful thing I am grateful for arriving safely, for my wife’s happiness is everything. She wanted to see her family, her father, uncles and aunts. I’ve kept her in Southwest Texas too long; this trip I most willingly grant.

So, here we are now in a snowy southern wonderland. Waiting for Christmas dinner to come;
a present only my wife can understand.

Cool Gardening

Park

Dog

Sea Cat

Turtoise

Bears

Peacock

Elephants

Guys

Engle

Butterfly

Coz of U.......

I promise, I will not make the same mistakes that you did. I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery. As I will not break, the way you did, you fell so hard. I’ve learned the hard way to never let it get that far. Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk.
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt. Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me, but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid I lose my way, and it’s not too long before you point it out. I cannot cry, because I know that's weakness in your eyes I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day of my life.

My heart can’t possibly break when it wasn't even whole to start with Because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk. It’s becoz of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to find it hard to trust, not only me, but everyone around me, Because of you, I am afraid I watched you die, I heard you cry every night in your sleep, but I’m never scared of die day coming to me before you.
I was not as young as ur thought, so you should have known better than to lean on me. You never thought of anyone else you just saw your painful and broken heart. And now I cry in the middle of the night, doing the same dam thing. And because of you I never strayed to far from the sidewalk. Because of you I feel ashamed my self with some accident mistake.
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything. Because of you I don't know how to let anyone else in........?

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Life Proverb

*** What’s life mean? Life now is so much different to facing a lot of problems in different ways now. Brightness was art me went i am happy or sadness sometime. But slowly as time flies by darkness slowly surrounds me as brightness deeply so far. By the way, I am living in stress and sadness than happy life. Who any kindness person can tell me why my life can’t brightness as other? Although, coz of my self or my unlucky life must faced or and facing??***

Just because of you.........I lost my childhood
Just because of you.........I don’t know what is wrong or right?
Just because of you.........I want to cry
Just because of you.........I brave up and choose way to die
Just because of you.........I feel so scared always of lost you
Just because of you.........I am dreaming about every night
Just because of you.........I can’t sleep at all
Just because of you.........It’s hard to weep my tears out
Just because of you.........I cut my wrists
Just because of you.........I don’t give a damn
Just because of you.........I don’t know who I am?
Just because of you.........I am so sad
Just because of you.........I look at the WORLD in pink color
Just because of you.........I hate my life
Just because of you.........I took the knife
Just because of you.........make my blood flows
Just because of you.........I can’t explain my sadness to anyone
Just because of you.........I lost my face
Just because of you.........I hate this WORLD
Just because of you.........I hate you till end of life

** So everything is happening just because of YOU!!!
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All of those just an example for all friends to notifying as ur good lesson!