Everything I do for love!!!

My dear all friend readers, this is the rarelt event which happening in my life. It's not a novel which some writter created it happen and made as a flim to shows all audice. BUT this is true just happen in my life, which make me can't forget it till end of life. I am so please meeting this and hopefully it will staying longer life ever and ever....

For many years a go I rarely to know what us true love mean? Reaching to this years, I am reaching to 32 years sharp. I have never man who I have real feel expressing “LOVES”. But now I met him, thank god.

Kosal is a nice man with his gentle character, he is only the man who I expected give him all my loving to this man. If I talk about him before we have known each other for many years, Kosal is man who is the once I am not interested before and either ever think we can become a couple love in one day. As time has changing from time to time only seven 7-months later, what I suggested it should not become true. Now everything have changes after we started learnt each other. The last result is I tell him the true that I “love you”. This is ashamed matters in our customs tell man first that she loves that MAN. This is true, but I rethink about my personal feeling many times {how should I do with this crazy feeling? if I not let him know, there’re hurtful in my heart ever.... I told my self even he rejected my love I can get BUT I could keep in my heart any more. So everything become to possible as pleasure. After I told him, he laughs and later he gives me a BIG kiss which I will be forget from my mind till end.

July 4, 2007, is the first day my love has been created as a good chance we know each other feeling clearly. The reasons why I choose that day for birth of our love “It’s easy to remember”. Preach Sihanouk Ville is place that we made loves happen. Even though, I hurtful or happy it’s depend.... {Oh my god result is best than m expected. This is the game if I lose that will be only my side BUT if we both will win together at the same time. I still remember all his words that with funny... He said “Oh dear, why you loving me, I’m not handsome as others why? You choose ME??? I am so impressive with you brave that all girls can’t do as you. I know you’re a good girl who rarely to met!!! This is my honestly word. I won’t say to that I love BUT I pity you more than my love being with my dear girl! I love you so...} You’re to brave to do that!!!

My dear reader, can you imagine how do I feel that time?? All body was shacked and cool and hot around my body. I don’t know how much exciting I feel after hearing that word? It made me feel so nervous at same time with happy. I never dreamed to hearing that word from him because I already prepared to accept the rejected from him at time as well. All my soul flying around including very much happiness and don’t know how you say!!! During that he has kissing around to expressing his love with me for long time a go. However, there’s only same question that we asking each other with no answer “How come it makes our relation become love and when was created?”

Finally, we’re both “Kosal and I” know each other clearly understanding about that love mean.... that’s why we give everything what we keeping in heart long. I never disappointed with what I been done with him. Even all character run out of rule Khmer girl who we rarely let girl do as me... BUT I did it already...I may no need to explain you all what happen that time... sic :-)

Last word, I am so happy and also thank god allowed to know and received Bong Kosal as husband, we have promised we accepted husband and wife even we do not follow the law but our love is from bottoms heart... Hopefully, one day we will marry after both parents understanding and accepted our loves. Thus, only god who know this well!!!

Knowing where to make an effort in your life

Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love, because you don't force yourself to fall, you just fall. It hurt to love someone and not loved in return, BUT what is more painful is never have encourage to let that someone to know how you feel? Thus, don’t go for looks; they can deceive, as don’t go for wealth; even that fades away…

Lucky is the man who is the first love of a woman, but luckier is the woman who is the last love of a man. Just go to someone makes you smile because take only a smile to make dark seem like a bright. Then, take it only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone; a day to love someone, and a day to day to love someone BUT it takes a lifetime to forget somebody.

I believe that to truly Love, is the ultimate __expression of the will to live. A heart that truly loves is forever young. It’s true that we don’t know what we got until we lose it, but also true that we don’t what we have been missing until it arrives….

Many a young lady does not realize just how strong her love for a young man is until he fails to pass the approval test with her parents. As a careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life, and a timely word may level stress; as a loving word may heal and bless. Please remember that the happiness of people doesn’t necessarily have the best everything they just make everything come along their ways…..

Love, true love, is that which can give the most without asking or demanding anything in return. Loves being with a smile; grow with a kiss, must be end with a tear. When you were born; you’re crying but everyone around you was smiling…. Live your life so that when you die; you’re the one who smiling and everyone around you is crying…

*** Lesson lean! Is it better For a Woman to Marry a Man Who Loves Her than a Man She Loves?

Effort is important, but knowing where to make an effort in your life makes all the difference. Wishing you all, a wonderful year ahead...

Happiness keeps u Sweet,
Trials keep u Strong,
Sorrow keeps u Human,
Failure Keeps u Humble,
Success keeps u glowing,
AND MISUNDERSTANDINGS KEEPS U IN PAIN

Last day 2006

This is the last day of the year 2006……entering to 2007 “Hey welcome” I normally spent much time with class and office. According these few months I felt SICK very often so I can’t post any thing news from my side or as related to office.

And today I am still here at my office, but now I might change mind not stay longer time. You know why? I never feel like this before. It’s bit strength to me, because mostly I love quiet place than crowded, specially my house…. there’re many niece and nephew living together, we live as a BIG family… I like them but I love quiet to concentrate with my work or class work as well. I think can’t stay here longer hours anymore, I feel so lonely and far away from family….. I am scaring next year I might staying alone as last….I wish to would not had that again. As my plane would not go to clinic also, hope I’m ok tonight!

Anyway, would tell you that I miss you all so much I dear friends, how are you doing these long days. However, hope everyone doing well. I don’t have much word to say but I would like to take this opportunity wishing you all the best, good health, good luck, peaceful and prosperity to you and a whole family. May New Year bring you only peace, good luck and happiness ever and ever……..

Happy New Year………..2007 “See you next year coming soon :-)”

Flower and Its means

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4 wives

He loved the 4th wife the most.
He adorned her with rich robes and treated her to delicacies.
He took great care of her and gave her nothing but the best.

He also loved the 3rd wife very much.
He's very proud of her and always wanted to show her off to his friends.
However, the merchant is always in great fear that she might run away with some other men.

He too, loved his 2nd wife.
She is a very considerate person, always patient and in fact is the merchant's confidante.
Whenever the merchant faced some problems, he always turned to his 2nd wife and she would always help him out and tide him through difficult times.

Now, the merchant's 1st wife is a very loyal partner and has made great contributions in maintaining his wealth and business as well as taking care of the household.
However, the merchant did not love the first wife and although she loved him deeply, he hardly took notice of her.

** One day, the merchant fell ill. Before long, he knew that he was going to die soon. He thought of his luxurious life and told himself, "Now I have 4 wives with me. But when I die, I'll be alone. How lonely I'll be!"

Thus, he asked the 4th wife, "I loved you most, endowed you with the finest clothing and showered great care over you. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No way!" replied the 4th wife and she walked away without another word. The answer cut like a sharp knife right into the merchant's heart.

The sad merchant then asked the 3rd wife, "I have loved you so much for all my life. Now that I'm dying, will you follow me and keep me company?" "No!" replied the 3rd wife. "Life is so good over here! I'm going to remarry when you die!" The merchant's heart sank and turned cold.

He then asked the 2nd wife, "I always turned to you for help and you've always helped me out. Now I need your help again. When I die, will you follow me and keep me company?" "I'm sorry, I can't help you out this time!" replied the 2nd wife. "At the very most, I can only send you to your grave." The answer came like a bolt of thunder and the merchant was devastated.

Then a voice called out: "I'll leave with you. I'll follow you no matter where you go." The merchant looked up and there was his 1st wife. She was so skinny, almost like she suffered from malnutrition. Greatly grieved, the merchant said, "I should have taken much better care of you while I could have!”

Actually we all have 4 wives in our lives.... nothing else!

The 4th wife is our body: No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.

The 3rd wife is our possession, status and wealth: When we die, they all go to others.

The 2nd wife is our family and friends: No matter how much time and effort we lavish in making it look good, it'll leave us when we die.

Then 1st wife is something you can’t see is in fact our soul: Often neglected in our pursuit of material wealth and sensual pleasure. It is actually the only thing that follows us wherever we go. Perhaps it's a good idea to cultivate and strengthen it now rather than to wait until we're on our deathbed to lament.

So please think WHAT WILL YOU DO ABOUT IT!?

*** THE LEAST YOU CAN DO IS LET OTHERS KNOW…… Thank everyone for take this good idea as your lesson learnt. Good luck!

Obsessed.....

Firstly, there's definitely something about these pain-filled eyes.Secondly, there's one thing that my eyes are hell tired now is the fact that I'm not getting a good sleep due to professional & Freak activities. I wanna need a change in this damn life. Why must I kill away my spare time this way when I really am about to lose my sadly felt self-respect, self-confidence for nothing of Good.

When I think things are smoothening per my way, I thought to hard and they come tumbling down to me with a shock. What the hell am I thinking now? Tap, Tap, Tap ... I've completely lost my independence and self image?I am no longer going to die unfulfilling my dreams. The fact is I want to be famous.

Thirdly, again love feelings? "Love" What the hell is love? SHE, the damn seductress, witch, devil, ghost ...What I felt about her and What I feel about as love , and it is not what I get in return.

Damn I have to quit, Gimme booze ... if I wanna to sleep... just sleeping like the dead, bcoz don’t want to think about others!!!Lastly, loves everyone!!!

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A compliment of ur girl:

And this is just a sharing lesson learn for all men who wanna to know more of a compliment about your girl friend. However, I would promised you that to be fairs our girls, I will let know give you a compliments to a man later soon.

I compliments to a Girl you like... funny isn't it?In every way they are necessary and they need to be very special and fancy ... Let us try them out!!!

1) Compliment On What’s REALLY Special About Her: Compliment on her Uniqueness, her Good looks, her funny jokes and her positive attributes such as her personality or honesty.

2) Be Detailed: Always be detailed and clear. Girls love details. By the way, Let her know you noticed a special thing about her that she tends to act hiding from You.

3) Mean What You Say: Really look into her eyes when you compliment her. Also, never use false flattery. If you say something, then mean it. Or at least practice till you sound like you mean it. Try hard and hard till you believe that she is melted within.

4) Don’t Overdo It: Your compliments will only be special if you compliment her every once in awhile. The less you compliment a woman, the more it will mean to her.

5) Only Compliment Her Because She Is Special: Compliment her because she is special, and because you want to treat her special being. This always makes a girl warmer every time she meets you again. Do this to someone you don't know, she will be flattered and try to find out who you are as you walk away ... Girls are born confused by the way !!!

Hmmm, sound interesting, hopes you’ll keep this thought in your heart as lesson learnt for LIFE………Good luck everyone!

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I wana to know

You just don't get it
It's not about all the missing details
The silent glares
The hurried phone calls
The extended absences
None of that even matters.

What matters is that when I asked you
To bear your soul
And give me the raw truth
You looked me straight in the Eyes
And liedThat's the point

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Sometime I am feeling so strange to me and not much clearly of what friend means “As my understanding friend understands each other, helping, listening and sharing even sadness or happiness”.

Furthermore, friend is not the word that we just talk out or call somebody easily as we needs isn’t it? But sometime all these though above might be wrong bcoz other might don’t think as we had “All persons are always having different opinions this is right”.

According to this matter, I am very much understood now why once of friend who we just meet know each other for last couple month could not expressing out of his feeling to me? I was confused was he thinking we’re friends or just talk as hobby? As these couple days, I couldn’t sleep well coz of him ‘I am sooooo concern and care of him all times”.

Dear! I would like to listen to all your matters that are happening? Why he could not talk out to other listen if they can provide him idea as how find good solution etc……..but just replied {Not serious dear, it’s my personal problem!!! And sorry can’t tell you this}. All his words recorded in my heart I felt deep hurt, bcoz I have no rights even listen to share to friend problem.

Although, he said can’t tells me anything now told me what’s happening make him up set? If never heard anything I might feeling cooler till today. Honestly said, he can’t sms me for couple days ago, seem like so quite……. No any communication, no talk, no laugh just miss his information makes me sadly? And I will feel guilty if he still in not happy with his thing.

However, please be accepted dear friend, there’s someone in this world care and thinking about you alwaysssss. Otherwise, if I would like to forward all these feeling to once of who's "My dear friend" to know, please trying to understanding of my heart....

Anyway, I don’t have much ideas to say, just would expressing all bad to this blog as usual. Hopefully, everything will be resolved in good way, we both might release of these felt from minds to each other soon. May have a good luck, that’s all I want to say!!

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SADNESS OF LIFE

The sadness of life is that all things are not born equal. With happening some are richer and some just poorer. The balance of life and truly unbalanced and the only thing fair about live itself is death… Sorrow strikes me time and again. My guess is nobody would read this blogs as they are boring and stupid.

I don’t why there’s no fewer days make me happy……as extremely, I like thinking about this or think about that non stop. I so scaring one day I could be a mantle problem must be, oh dear I don’t want time coming. I really know sometime this felt happen coz of I’m a lonely person who did not have friends talking or consult idea with. As I don’t spare my time walk around to release some stress out. God! That’s not fair to me! Bcoz in my life I never give sadness or make somebody cry coz of me. Still why I am facing such as this headache problems? Even today I would love smiles much more than cry but sometime tears comes out without informed………

Further more, from day-today I am working as “A rooboo {a machine human}” to learn money helping my family situation, but I never complained related this duty. I knew it’s my duty that we must filling up! There’s no choice either as god allowed me born in a poor family. Dear I am not complaining of this LUCK, it’s my pleasure born warm enough family as mind. But what make me stress and never happy to be sad is “There’s no one who can help me, talk or consulting with whenever I need them sometimes”. That’s I always blaming to the god s why……….and why? Or he just allowed me born in this world to helping, consulting, listening, and serving other persons only? Where is justice to me? Fine if he happy to see me facing such as this problems I do must accept even want or don’t want to…… Just waiting the end life comes time, and then I’ll know those Kammar will gone… away from me!!!

So my dearest friends that’s why I like blogging down in my site what I gonna to say or to expressing all bad felt out………..bcoz there’re only the two of them “The computer and lovely music who’s my best friends in LIFE” Plz don’t laughing with this though at me, you’ll understand whenever you’re as facing as me……… I’m pretty sure you’ll gonna to meet at lease once time in you life. However, I praying for you may you all meet only happiness, smiles, prosperous, peaceful and good health 4ever……….

I merely wrote them to relieve myself, and then myself from the reality of life. So much needs to be done yet so little has been. Is this what I'm fated to be? a slump, a loser, or a lazy bum? All this feelings boiling in my heart, the people around just selfishly take and dun give back in return. I dun trust anyone but my family. Yet time again and again, as I got lied in to goals are just distanced memories of my formal self. When will I learn to pick up the pieces and moves all are selfish….. Then as they are ... I would just have to depend on myself to stand up... just to move on... as we can!!

***Thus, llease keep the small ideas as below just keep in your heart………

Happiness is a journey, not a destination
So, work like you do not need money, if you like that job much money still u can’t do it
Love that like you have never been hurt……….. But love just a single feeling deeply hurt…
Dance like no one is watching………..
Life is beautiful and cold be loneliness as well.
Sometimes lonely is a good feeling we can enjoy and also can be kill our selves…. Still you want to live with lonely or should better find other person for your partner soon?
Everyone should love life……... enduring and pain can train our-selves to become stronger.
God loves everyone as u love ur self……. And NO 1 loves u more than U guy!

Am I moody or sick?

I not feeling very well today.... everything just seems to be at the wrong place, wrong time and wrong person..... Ash!!!!....hope this will end pretty soon after i woke up tomorrow. In my hobby, I always blogged all any events happening to me even good sign or bad but I’d love to reminding all matters as lesson learn for life or keep for souvenir whenever I getting older. That’s y I writing down very often “Bcoz there’s only her who’s my best friend” she always listening to me even I’m happy or sad………....




I sometime really want to go away from people or staying in quiet place release out of all feel out. Yesterday I was ok but don't why today I really running low in energy after the body combat class....I really suffer during..... I can’t really keep up with the beat and felt so left out......... No no won’t admit I’m O...L...D... already? or coz of lonely life. I really what I gonna to do? or what I want right away?

Last night I went to bed at 9:00 pm a bit early then usually, but woke up at 1:00 morning. I felt so deeply headache with fever. I took some medicine the cover with a blanket near me then off the fan immediately. All night I can’t sleep well, even I tried to close my eyes but it won’t work either. Now result I am in bed, oh dear………..

Yes dear, I feeling tired and low energy but still can't sleep......whole night now it make me deeply headache and fever also. Oh dear, how can I go to work tomorrow? Coz today I can’t to anywhere sorry I miss school……….I hate to do this coz I normal never miss!! Hope I’ll recover when tomorrow is comes……… Plz god helps me better, I want to be as strong as usual……